My 10-week work attachment is gonna be over in 7 hrs time. I just can't wait for the clock to strike 2pm. The day that I have been longing for, all these days! It has finally arrived. It is not that I am going to be away permanently from this job. However, the fact that I have a 2 week break after this means alot to me. I would have graduated by then and be labelled as a fresh graduate. The real test begins then. However I don't wish to think about it for now. Live for the moment!!!! YahoooOooooo!
I was extremely happy last night that I couldn't sleep at all. hehehe!
Anyway, can't wait for 2 pm! and after that it is gonna be PARrrrrrty time!
take care people!:))))
(I just realised that this is my first post where I sound soooo happy. good good. i like it!)
Showing posts with label job. Show all posts
Showing posts with label job. Show all posts
Thursday, May 6, 2010
Friday, April 9, 2010
house and spouse
I always feel happy talking to people who shares their thoughts and ideas in a very natural way- serious issues that can be communicated in a very light-hearted manner. really love those chats and people who can simply do so. Had a great chat with my colleague this morning who is apparently going to leave this job very soon.
I was really too happy for him that he is moving on in his life. We have the same kinda of working style- SLACKERS! While talking with him, I shared my view on quitting this job if i ever had the chance to do so. He instantly replied " house and spouse are two important things that you need to settle before trying out anything new. and for that you need to have money. even if that means, working in a job that you hate most."
I totally agree with him that getting a house and finding the right partner are the most important thing in life. Once you are settled with these two in life, I guess we can rather focus on other things. However, it is easier said than done. My colleague,who has worked in 3 different jobs so far, told me today that this job had given him the best experience in life that he wouldn't have gained if he had worked some where else. True indeed! He didn't sign the contract when he joined this job- that gave him the chance to quit anytime. However, I did the costly mistake of signing the contract for 4 years- that left me with ZERO chances of quitting this job anytime before 2014. (ignoring the fact that the world is going to end in 2012)
We talked about all the shitty kind of stuff that we were instructed to do by senior officers. Had a great time looking back at stuff that we did. Just felt extremely happy for him and all the best buddy! I am so so so gonna miss his morning greetings to me and that smile of his!
I was really too happy for him that he is moving on in his life. We have the same kinda of working style- SLACKERS! While talking with him, I shared my view on quitting this job if i ever had the chance to do so. He instantly replied " house and spouse are two important things that you need to settle before trying out anything new. and for that you need to have money. even if that means, working in a job that you hate most."
I totally agree with him that getting a house and finding the right partner are the most important thing in life. Once you are settled with these two in life, I guess we can rather focus on other things. However, it is easier said than done. My colleague,who has worked in 3 different jobs so far, told me today that this job had given him the best experience in life that he wouldn't have gained if he had worked some where else. True indeed! He didn't sign the contract when he joined this job- that gave him the chance to quit anytime. However, I did the costly mistake of signing the contract for 4 years- that left me with ZERO chances of quitting this job anytime before 2014. (ignoring the fact that the world is going to end in 2012)
We talked about all the shitty kind of stuff that we were instructed to do by senior officers. Had a great time looking back at stuff that we did. Just felt extremely happy for him and all the best buddy! I am so so so gonna miss his morning greetings to me and that smile of his!
Tuesday, March 23, 2010
Emotions on a Roller Coaster
I live for the weekends and 'die' on the rest of the days. hate work to the core. It's really exhausting. Brain cells are dead and are being sent to the mortuary. Every sunday night, I get into a sort of depression mode thinking of the next day's work. Emotions are on a roller coaster ride. Some parts of the day, I feel fine for no reason. The next minute, I become really really upset for no reason. Friends keep saying that I should learn to pat my heart and say 'aal izz well'
But it is bloody damn difficult to be calm and be composed. It is so tough to bring the heart to a relaxed mood. Whenever I want to whisper 'aal izz well', my mind and heart wander off to hell. All I could feel is pain. If someone were to ask me the reason for my devastation, I have no answer to that question. Loss of appetite, lack of social life, gloomy days, sleepless nights...oh well speaking about sleepless nights. I work from 630 am to 6pm everyday. I return home to rest from 7pm to 11pm. Get up again to finish any pending work till 5am after which I get ready for my work again.
My journey seems to be travelling in only one path- home to workplace. Oh what the...!! *sighs* It has been days since I logged on to facebook. It has been days since I last spoke to my friends or smsed them. It has been ages I met up with them. Going through a period of 'I-don't-want-to-see- the-world.' I think I've said this earlier somewhere in my blog- A costly mistake made in my life that had brought me to this state today. I should have fought then even if that had broken many hearts. I should have done it for my well-being, for my sake, for my life! I should have been firm in my decision. I should have not gotten into a course that I didn't want to do in my life.
so many 'should's.... Now fate is shooting me!:(
But it is bloody damn difficult to be calm and be composed. It is so tough to bring the heart to a relaxed mood. Whenever I want to whisper 'aal izz well', my mind and heart wander off to hell. All I could feel is pain. If someone were to ask me the reason for my devastation, I have no answer to that question. Loss of appetite, lack of social life, gloomy days, sleepless nights...oh well speaking about sleepless nights. I work from 630 am to 6pm everyday. I return home to rest from 7pm to 11pm. Get up again to finish any pending work till 5am after which I get ready for my work again.
My journey seems to be travelling in only one path- home to workplace. Oh what the...!! *sighs* It has been days since I logged on to facebook. It has been days since I last spoke to my friends or smsed them. It has been ages I met up with them. Going through a period of 'I-don't-want-to-see- the-world.' I think I've said this earlier somewhere in my blog- A costly mistake made in my life that had brought me to this state today. I should have fought then even if that had broken many hearts. I should have done it for my well-being, for my sake, for my life! I should have been firm in my decision. I should have not gotten into a course that I didn't want to do in my life.
so many 'should's.... Now fate is shooting me!:(
Sunday, February 21, 2010
If the world wouldn't suck, we'd all fall off
The title of my post has issues with regards to physics, gravity and force. I'm least bothered about them. What has been bothering me for the past few days is 'why life sucks'. Whenever my mind starts asking this question 'why was I born?', for once I should be aware that something terribly is gonna be wrong.
finished with studies. graduating in 3 months' time. 10 week work attachment from tommorrow. Looks as though I am pretty much settled down in life. But, am I happy with a life that has laid down everything for me?- a safe career and relatively well-paid job. Can't I take the route less travelled by? As some of friends know, I was forced to choose a course I hated. I was forced to enter into a profession that I hated most. Now, I hate it when I have to put a smile and act as though everything is perfect. The smile, whenever I look at the mirror, kills my conscience and my conscience shouts out loud at me ," you've betrayed yourself."
A heart-throbbing pain travels all through my veins and cells.
I don't want a career or a job where I need to follow what others do and say. I want to be my own boss. I want to start something on my own. More than a follower, I want to lead others into the path less travelled. It is a risk. In fact, I'm ready to take the calculated risk. All I want are support, encouragement, arms that would lovingly embrace me and a shoulder to cry when I need. Am I expecting too much?
I've been thinking of all these for a while and usually ends up with confusion and disappointment. Where should i go? Where should I start? Is this the most ethical thing to do- quit my job even before i start? Am I ready to pay for it? Am I ready to face everyone after that? Will I have the strength to answer their questions?
Confused. Disturbed. Dismayed.
finished with studies. graduating in 3 months' time. 10 week work attachment from tommorrow. Looks as though I am pretty much settled down in life. But, am I happy with a life that has laid down everything for me?- a safe career and relatively well-paid job. Can't I take the route less travelled by? As some of friends know, I was forced to choose a course I hated. I was forced to enter into a profession that I hated most. Now, I hate it when I have to put a smile and act as though everything is perfect. The smile, whenever I look at the mirror, kills my conscience and my conscience shouts out loud at me ," you've betrayed yourself."
A heart-throbbing pain travels all through my veins and cells.
I don't want a career or a job where I need to follow what others do and say. I want to be my own boss. I want to start something on my own. More than a follower, I want to lead others into the path less travelled. It is a risk. In fact, I'm ready to take the calculated risk. All I want are support, encouragement, arms that would lovingly embrace me and a shoulder to cry when I need. Am I expecting too much?
I've been thinking of all these for a while and usually ends up with confusion and disappointment. Where should i go? Where should I start? Is this the most ethical thing to do- quit my job even before i start? Am I ready to pay for it? Am I ready to face everyone after that? Will I have the strength to answer their questions?
Confused. Disturbed. Dismayed.
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